Since there was no blue light in the sky,

it made me cry and cry.

One night, I fixed dinner, did dishes, and waited

for others. However, they did not come to my heart.

It made me cry and cry.

One day, I tried to run as fast as I can to catch them,

but I could not breathe and had to stay at the same point.

It made me cry and cry.

When I looked in the gloomy and dark sky from my bed,

I saw the bloody moon. It told me that I always have

to be alone. It made me cry and cry.

I talked to my old dear, and her voice was full of sunshine.

I could not believe that she was saying this words.

-Hey, we should go to separate way.

I tursted her with all my heart, but she left me behind in

the dark without any sorry. It made me cry and cry.

I went to fridge and picked up a couple of drinks.

I thought that I should not to do, but I had to do.

To forget everything, to throw everything,

I had to drink something, so I can get free from it.

However, as I drink and drink, all the things that

used to bother me came up to me and killed me.

It made me cry and cry.

O dear, why is this happening to me?

Hey, sorry. I should not to say this, but these are

coming from my dirty mouth.

Why? Why can't be not treated like a damn shit?

Such a gaddamn situations are throwing me into

the bloody hell, and demons are fucking around me.

Have I done something wrong to people?

Oh, may be. Of course I might a selfish biyatch.

I'm so sorry. If you did not know about my inner side,

that is my goddamn mistake. I should told you that

I could be the worst person -or animal- you ever seen.

But...but... I asked no, I begged them for blessing.

If I could be forgived, I would be free from my pressure.

I believed, so I tried even though that way is full with

pain and blood. I cannot say anything but sorry.

I might live in this way, buddy.

Or..I can change this shitty way, so I can

get close to you side. One thing that I always hope

is being with you. That is all I need.

Until then...

I cry and cry...