i just wanna say that i seriously don't care...

or maybe i'm lying to myself ,,,,

i shouldn't know

'cause i don't care.....

i have to say that my heart is so mixed up...

i have to quit and i have to quit right now,,,

i'm sorry

but it's just not going to work;

i quit

i so quit my life,,,,

i knew that it wasn't going to be easy

and you know what?

i guess i have now finally realized that the only solution would be to stop caring and stop feeling things....

i really don't know what i should do or how i should deal with the everday trauma happening all aroung me....

or maybe.

it is just my lack of understanding

or my lack of.............everything, i guess;.......

i don't know

it's really difficult

and i feel so bad for all the troubles that i've caused

and i feel bad for being myself.........