어제..새벽에..참마니..울었어여..

제앤과..500일넘게..사궜어여..(500일동안..가티있엇떤일수?6일)

21살..4월어느날..알게된남자..

어케알았냐구영?

한겜이란곳에서..고스톱치다가..만났져..

겜하다가..이말저말하다가..친해져..몇번고스톱치다가..

전번교환까지..하공..글케..알게된사람이..제앤이져..

그렇게..통화하다가..제앤이..저..좋다고..사귀자고..했어여..

얼굴한번두..못본상태..애정에..목말더렀나.."응"이랬쪄..ㅡㅡ;;

(왜못만났냐궁?울앤..제주도..전..경기도..거기가..거리인지라^^;)

글서..글케..시간이.흘러..우린..만나게..되었답니당..

4월에..알게되서..11월달에..만났쪄..^^;;

그전에..만날기회가..잇었쪈..

두번..;;하지만..결국..사정이생겨서..못났고요..

11월에..되어서..만나게됏어여..

그것도..말두없이..ㅡㅡ;

저나해서..10시..우리..이따가..데이뜨나..할까?ㅡㅡ;;

전..장난일줄알고..고래고래~이랬쪈..ㅡㅡ;;

덴장~!!경기도줄알았냐구영?ㅡㅡ;;

암튼..연락없이..온..이웬수덕분에..ㅋㅋ만나게되어써영..

그렇게..2박3일후..제앤은..다시내려가꼬..

시간이.흘러~전..1월달에..제주도를가꼬..

저두..2박3일후에..올라오고..

그렇게..지내다가..

일이터져써영..ㅠㅠ

4월달에..어느..겜싸이트에서..겜을하게됏어여..

그아시져?끝말잇기.겜?일명..쿵쿵따..ㅡㅡ;;

그겜을..하게되었쪈..

하다보니..재미잇꼬..레벨올라가는것두..재밌꾸..

한달을..밖에..나가지두..않고..

글케..지냈쪈..

그러는동안..앤이랑은..연락은..점점안하게..되고..앤두..안하구

(제앤이..폰을..해지시켜서..없었어영)

글서..집으로..저나하믄..맨날..밖에..나갔다고..부모님이.말씀하시공..

맨날은..아니었지만.가끔저나하믄..허탕치는날이..더많았쪄..

전..겜을하믄서..지내고..잇을떄..

겜에서..알게된사람이..저에게..다가오더군여..ㅡㅡ;;

잠시..정신이.어케됐는지..ㅡㅜ

바람이.홀랑..나버렸져..ㅜㅜ

그게..시작이었어..그렇게..시간이..지나..바람핀남자가..수두룩햇쪄..

이상한건..집에있을떄..앤한테.저나가없응거예영..

밖에만..나가믄..저나가.칼같이.자주자주..오더라구영..우연이겟지.생각했쪄..

이건..내...착각일뿐이었단걸..ㅡㅡ;;

제앤..전직..깍뚜기..ㅡㅡ;;지금나이..27살이니깡..작년까지..깍뚜기..했으니깡..

(제가..깎두기.무섭다궁..안만나다궁해소..접었지만..)

암튼..내가..겁을상실햇쪄..

울앤은..한다믄..한다는인간인데..ㅡㅢ

겜하다가..열받게한사람잇어서..그사람찾아내서..인천까지..쫓아온사람인걸..ㅡㅡ;;

그걸잊고..지내고있엇쪈..ㅠㅠ

사실..울앤..저한테..쫌..심하게함돠..말을심하게..하지두않구영..욕두안하구영..

손을대는것두..절대루.없져..멀하나라두..잘못챙겨줘서..안달인사람이져..

다만..쫌..다혈질에..ㅡㅡ;;아는사람이..전국구에..퍼졌다는거..ㅡㅡ;;

제가사는곳에두..아는사람이..많져..

그니깡..1월달부터..울앤..제뒤에.사람을..붙혀놧더거졍..ㅡㅡ;;

이제와서..안사실이지만..1월달부터..지금까지.쭉..뒤에..캐고있어영..ㅜㅜ

그사람이.어케생긴지두멀라영..ㅜㅜ

암튼..그사람이..제가..어딜가든..누굴만나든..다..울앤한테..보고했나봐여..

제가..좀전에..말씀드렸다싶잉..수없이..바람핀거..ㅡㅡ;;

1년동안..바람핀거..다알고잇다는거져..ㅜㅜ

근데..이사람..말안하고..어제..그러더군여..더이상은..못참겟다구..

글서..멀?그랫떠니..

이젠..바람그만피라고..ㅡㅡ;;

옹?아냐아냐..우선발뻄부터..했쪄..

나그런적없엉..

그랫더니..다안다고..진짜루..다알더군영..몇시에..집에서나가꼬..

몇일날..어디서..누굴만나것두..언제..집에안들어와꼬..ㅡㅡ

정말루..할말을..잃엇어여..ㅜㅜ

미안해서..머라할말이..없더라구영..

제가..머가..떳떳햇는지..어제..큰소리..쩌렁쩌렁..쳤슴당..^^;;

그랫떠니..이인간..하느날..과관임돠..그래두..씩씩하니깡..다행이네..ㅡㅡ;

그러더니..그러더군여..제자리로..돌아와줘서..넘..고맙다구..

솔직히..말하믄..울앤..생긴거..답지않게..순진함돵..

환경이..그렇긴하지만..여자라고..여직껏..저하나사궛슴돠..부모님이고..

칭구들한테..암만..딴여자를캘려고..해두..ㅡㅡ;;

진짜루..사실이랍니당..

울앤이..어디못난구석은없어영..(쫓아다니는여자만..4명이있어영..지금..--;;)

암튼..그렇게.1년동안에..바람핀걸..다참고잇더남자..

괴로워서..1달동안..술만먹었다는남자..(연락이..안오더라구영..울앤..괴로워할떄..

전..딴남자와..울루랄라~술먹고잇엇다니..아~하늘이.노랗습다..)

그래두..아직..제가..좋답니당..사랑합다고..함돠..저역시..이사람이..좋슴다..

연락이..안되고..못만나서..바람을폈지만..

죄인인..제가..무슨할말이..있겟냐만은..ㅜㅜ

하지만..울앤..제뒷조사..넘하는거가터영..

고등학교떄..어케하고댕겼는지..다압니당..

(쫌..파란만장한건..사실..)

낙태,술.남자..머..안해본건..없져..(담배뺴꼬..ㅡㅡ)

울앤한테..순진한여자로..암것두..모르는여자로..보이고싶엇던저..ㅡㅡ;;

몽땅..거짓뿌렁을..해엇쪄..

근데..울앤..저알고나서..두달후에..제이름가꼬..뒷조사~쫙~마친상태였져..

제가..아나여??이케..이바닥은..좁을쭐??

전..그것두..모르궁..온갖내숭..다떨어엇영..

결국은..울앤이..혼자끙끙거리다가..저한테..모든걸안지..7개월만에..다말햇엇쪄..

정말..쥐구멍이라도..도망가고싶었는데..ㅡㅡ;;

자꾸..얘기옆으로..새네여..ㅡㅡ;;

제앤은..저만..바라봐주는..참착한남자임니당..(?)

하지만..이렇게..못된여자..저아라해주고..

아직까지..결혼할거라는이남자..곁에..제가있어두되는건가여?

전..자격이..없는거가터여..ㅜㅜ

이런말..할자격은..없지만..ㅜㅜ조언좀..욕두..하시겠쪄?

욕하시는거..다받겟슴돠..ㅜㅜ죄인이니..

 

**내용이..앞뒤가..없슴니당..ㅜㅜ죄송.**