Although you thought that he was nice to you... all those feelings that you thought you shared with him... turns out to be false.
you were living under false pretences. ofcourse he didnt like you. he is just using you for the time being. exactly like the way you are using him. except one minor delicate detail. that you like him, whereas he doesnt.
to deal with that truth. and of all the people to hear it from, at least we can thank the lord that i didnt have to hear it from him. none the less, it does not make you feel any better hearing this harsh truth from one of your best friends.
you think to yourself. given the facts that are laid infront of me, what is the most logical evalauation, putting your emotions and feelings aside. straight facts. yes, it is indeed painful... but this excruciating pain,... perhaps I am a masochist after all.
was i that hopeless? was i that desperate? yes, he seems like a cool guy.. and yes, you are extremely attracted to him... but lets face the facts. he's not perfect. he obviously doesnt like you as much as you like him. Angela is right. what has he done for you that was considered out of his way, sweet stuff. NONE to list.
and yet, you have rescheduled your work to be able to fit around his schedule. you cant enjoy going to downtown with him, because he despises the downtown. you take all the harsh criticisms which you yourself think that was unnecessary to mention. none the less, you take all that beating and then some more for what? hopes that he is nice to you?
yes... there are days that you cant help smiling because he has said nice things to you. the hike, was magical. as much as you are suffering from that hike, the alone time. getting to know one another, was priceless. he enjoys your company. no doubt about it. he has even admit it. but at what cost? what is the face value? you know deep down inside that its not that valuable. come on. he hasnt even added you to his myspace or facebook. and yet you conitnue to sign onto im's in hopes to strike a cool conversation with him.
he doesnt listen to you. he has never asked you why you want to become an attorney at law. obviously, there is something about that occupation that has always drawn me close to it, yet why can't he see that? or at least hear my reasoning before cursing up a storm about how horrible lawyers are, and that i am too nice to be one. is this is a joke? is this one of the scenes from the devil wears prada? when chrisitian thompson tells andrea that she is too nice to do her job? interesting...
so the truth of the matter is...
you like him. yes. that was the most obvious thing in the world.
but does he know? yes, stupid. must you ask?
does he like you back? hm... like as in what terms?
as someone to hangout with while he is here, then yes. anything more significant than that, is a no. you are not his type. maybe in 5 years when you can lose all that ugliness and become a swan.
it is so true. he said that i am a good investment. i didnt like the way that was put, but it is true, isnt it? if i lose the weight and i can be considered pretty, then he wouldnt be able to talk to me. what's up with that? i thought it was logical for one to think that between one human being to another, we can all come to terms and appreciate people for who they are. if everyone was skinny and pretty, what qualifications would you check off to be considered "pretty"?
i thought about confessing that i have a crush on him... and to find out what, that he doesnt feel the same way? but you still wanted him to know, right? what will you do after that/ will that make n e thing awkward? can you be a grown up and enjoy the time you have with him? or will you be once again mellodramatic and pretend to enjoy the times you spend with him, and agonize when youare away from him?
and you wonder where all that headache was coming from...
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Although you thought that he was nice to you... all those feelings that you thought you shared with him... turns out to be false.
you were living under false pretences. ofcourse he didnt like you. he is just using you for the time being. exactly like the way you are using him. except one minor delicate detail. that you like him, whereas he doesnt.
to deal with that truth. and of all the people to hear it from, at least we can thank the lord that i didnt have to hear it from him. none the less, it does not make you feel any better hearing this harsh truth from one of your best friends.
you think to yourself. given the facts that are laid infront of me, what is the most logical evalauation, putting your emotions and feelings aside. straight facts. yes, it is indeed painful... but this excruciating pain,... perhaps I am a masochist after all.
was i that hopeless? was i that desperate? yes, he seems like a cool guy.. and yes, you are extremely attracted to him... but lets face the facts. he's not perfect. he obviously doesnt like you as much as you like him. Angela is right. what has he done for you that was considered out of his way, sweet stuff. NONE to list.
and yet, you have rescheduled your work to be able to fit around his schedule. you cant enjoy going to downtown with him, because he despises the downtown. you take all the harsh criticisms which you yourself think that was unnecessary to mention. none the less, you take all that beating and then some more for what? hopes that he is nice to you?
yes... there are days that you cant help smiling because he has said nice things to you. the hike, was magical. as much as you are suffering from that hike, the alone time. getting to know one another, was priceless. he enjoys your company. no doubt about it. he has even admit it. but at what cost? what is the face value? you know deep down inside that its not that valuable. come on. he hasnt even added you to his myspace or facebook. and yet you conitnue to sign onto im's in hopes to strike a cool conversation with him.
he doesnt listen to you. he has never asked you why you want to become an attorney at law. obviously, there is something about that occupation that has always drawn me close to it, yet why can't he see that? or at least hear my reasoning before cursing up a storm about how horrible lawyers are, and that i am too nice to be one. is this is a joke? is this one of the scenes from the devil wears prada? when chrisitian thompson tells andrea that she is too nice to do her job? interesting...
so the truth of the matter is...
you like him. yes. that was the most obvious thing in the world.
but does he know? yes, stupid. must you ask?
does he like you back? hm... like as in what terms?
as someone to hangout with while he is here, then yes. anything more significant than that, is a no. you are not his type. maybe in 5 years when you can lose all that ugliness and become a swan.
it is so true. he said that i am a good investment. i didnt like the way that was put, but it is true, isnt it? if i lose the weight and i can be considered pretty, then he wouldnt be able to talk to me. what's up with that? i thought it was logical for one to think that between one human being to another, we can all come to terms and appreciate people for who they are. if everyone was skinny and pretty, what qualifications would you check off to be considered "pretty"?
i thought about confessing that i have a crush on him... and to find out what, that he doesnt feel the same way? but you still wanted him to know, right? what will you do after that/ will that make n e thing awkward? can you be a grown up and enjoy the time you have with him? or will you be once again mellodramatic and pretend to enjoy the times you spend with him, and agonize when youare away from him?
and you wonder where all that headache was coming from...
silly me.