love...?

"if u love someone, u always get hurt..however, at the same the time u feel loved"

He was 1 years younger than me...

We meat when we were in 7th grade.

In 7th grade we were just friends. We talked about our girl friend and boyfrieds.

We helped each other all the time.

One day i broke up with my boy friend and i was crying alone.

But i felt warm hands around my shoulders

"You may lost love but u didn't lost me"

and that moment i felt something inside of me.

I know we are just a friend and i know we'll be like that forever.

But we both can tell what we both want...

For two days i couldn't see his face or talk to him.

i was avoiding him and talked aways every time i see him..

But he didn't give up.. he kept come to me and told me to stay with him..

i know i want to be with him and i can't lie that i love him

but i'm just afriad that if i date him and lose him like others....

i didn't want that happen and i told him that

He was thinking for mins and he said

"love is pain. i know, but all i can say to u is that

im different than other guys. i won't lose u no matter that.

and if u think i am same as others we can just stay as friends

but u won't know that unless we try..."

Now here we are still dating and i am so glad that i give him a chance or give myself a chance

cuz right now im just happy every day becuz of him

and now i know i can't live with out him

and becuz of him

i was thinking over about marriage

Before i date him

i didn't want to get marry.

i thought that it's poinless and i was just afriad haveing kides.

and i thought i would be by myself all the time.

but now

when i find someone  that i love him so much

i would want to live with him

and have my life with him

also make kids and love him forever.

so sometimes

i kindda think of getting marry with him

cuz i know

i love him so much

and i will do anything for him

but right now im too young and we both don't know about futer

but i hope.. one day

we both will be in place where we have peace