To.내가사랑하는너 아침부터해서진짜생각많이해보고또생각해봤는데...내가어리석었던거같아...미안해...너한번질투하라고,시험해볼라고장난스럽게한일인데이렇게까지될줄은몰랐어.진심이야. 그때카톡할때갑자기씹어서순간놀랐었고너가답장할때조차난너가장난인줄알았었어...근데그게아니었더라..도연이가그때바로상담해줘서내가너한테미안하다고내가잘못햇다고안그러겠다고말할라고하고...너한테내일어떡하냐고햇을때난너가'몰라어떡해?'라는답장이올줄알았었어...그때미안하다고할라했었고...근데너가갑자기'너내가위에보낸거보고화풀렸다고생각하는거야?그런거랑바꾸면안돼'라고했을때얼마나깜짝놀라고갑자기실망했는지....그리고지은이한테신수민이내욕한다는소리하고상메'ㅉ고집불통ㅉ'이런식으로햇을때진짜진짜진짜너네가너무미웠었어...그래서그방에서그랬던거고...그땐앞뒤가안보였었고...그리고..때너한테그톡이왔을때,나진짜손떨리고너톡들어가는데얼마나손떨리고무서웠는지알아?그땐잡지도못하고내맘이그런게아니라고가지말라고너없이어떡케하라고이러냐고카톡을100번보내고싶었지만그렇게못했었어...너랑안헤어진거라고..현실아니라고부정하고...어떻게너가나한테이럴수있냐고고백은너가했는데어떻게이럴수있냐고하면서2일보내왔어.그러고나계속너만원망했었어...내잘못은모르고..근데오늘도연이가해준말보니까내가원망했던너탓이아니였더라고...내가적당히하고그만하면되었을거를너무널못믿고지나치게한거같아...너무고집부리고애들말안들었던거같아진짜미안해.너도고민많이하고말한거다이해해.그래서더미안하고.지금후회해봤자어떻게되돌릴수없다는거알아...너도미련따윈없는거알고...지금내가하는사과.나편하자고하는거일수도있어.변명으로들릴지몰르겠지만내진심이야.그것만알아줬으면좋겠어...솔직히어제오늘오전까지별로신경안쓰이고슬프지도않았고아무렇치도안았었어.근데...진짜끝이었어.... 4개월동안같이있었는데어떻게하루아침에괜찮아질수있겠어...싫어서헤어진것도아닌데...근데그날당일보다현실을알고나니까진짜못버티겠더라.미안해...정말로...내가너네한테최악이라고했던말도미안해...진심으로...보니까최악은나였었어...진심이야...미안해...눈치없게지은이참견하게해서미안하고...친구잘말렸어야했는데...눈치없게굴어서미안해...진심이야.정말미안하고 끝난거알아.근데진짜사랑해정말로..... 1
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아침부터해서진짜생각많이해보고또생각해봤는데...내가어리석었던거같아...미안해...너한번질투하라고,시험해볼라고장난스럽게한일인데이렇게까지될줄은몰랐어.진심이야.
그때카톡할때갑자기씹어서순간놀랐었고너가답장할때조차난너가장난인줄알았었어...근데그게아니었더라..도연이가그때바로상담해줘서내가너한테미안하다고내가잘못햇다고안그러겠다고말할라고하고...너한테내일어떡하냐고햇을때난너가'몰라어떡해?'라는답장이올줄알았었어...그때미안하다고할라했었고...근데너가갑자기'너내가위에보낸거보고화풀렸다고생각하는거야?그런거랑바꾸면안돼'라고했을때얼마나깜짝놀라고갑자기실망했는지....그리고지은이한테신수민이내욕한다는소리하고상메'ㅉ고집불통ㅉ'이런식으로햇을때진짜진짜진짜너네가너무미웠었어...그래서그방에서그랬던거고...그땐앞뒤가안보였었고...그리고..때너한테그톡이왔을때,나진짜손떨리고너톡들어가는데얼마나손떨리고무서웠는지알아?그땐잡지도못하고내맘이그런게아니라고가지말라고너없이어떡케하라고이러냐고카톡을100번보내고싶었지만그렇게못했었어...너랑안헤어진거라고..현실아니라고부정하고...어떻게너가나한테이럴수있냐고고백은너가했는데어떻게이럴수있냐고하면서2일보내왔어.그러고나계속너만원망했었어...내잘못은모르고..근데오늘도연이가해준말보니까내가원망했던너탓이아니였더라고...내가적당히하고그만하면되었을거를너무널못믿고지나치게한거같아...너무고집부리고애들말안들었던거같아진짜미안해.너도고민많이하고말한거다이해해.그래서더미안하고.지금후회해봤자어떻게되돌릴수없다는거알아...너도미련따윈없는거알고...지금내가하는사과.나편하자고하는거일수도있어.변명으로들릴지몰르겠지만내진심이야.그것만알아줬으면좋겠어...솔직히어제오늘오전까지별로신경안쓰이고슬프지도않았고아무렇치도안았었어.근데...진짜끝이었어.... 4개월동안같이있었는데어떻게하루아침에괜찮아질수있겠어...싫어서헤어진것도아닌데...근데그날당일보다현실을알고나니까진짜못버티겠더라.미안해...정말로...내가너네한테최악이라고했던말도미안해...진심으로...보니까최악은나였었어...진심이야...미안해...눈치없게지은이참견하게해서미안하고...친구잘말렸어야했는데...눈치없게굴어서미안해...진심이야.정말미안하고 끝난거알아.근데진짜사랑해정말로.....