안녕!.....그냥나도이렇게표현해보고싶어서...잘지내고있어?나는매일뭐..니가아는대로학교다니고내가하는거하면서잘지내고있어..그냥너는이런거잘표현도안하고하니까니가어떤지..뭘하면서지내는지...그냥가끔가다가내생각해주는지....나는우리가처음헤어지고나서는실감이잘안났는데반년정도지나니까이제정말니가많이생각나는거같아..우리가걸었던길..갔던곳....우리는항상뭐비슷했으니까..가끔가다큰맘먹고움직였다하면버스타고지하철타고40~50분?...그랬었는데...나는..너한테정말많이미안한게많아.....그냥다미안한거같아..몸도마음도상처주고이렇게내팽계치는거같고..그냥모르는척하는거같고내가했던말..했던약속..다못지키고니가어떻게생각하는지는모르겠지만..그냥나쁜놈이었다는걸로생각하면내가조금더편하겠다.....애들이나한테그런다너만큼만났으면진짜가족아니냐고헤어져도연락하고지내도되는거아니냐고...근데나는내가말꺼내놓고연락못하겠더라..그냥내가너가지고노는건가내가뭐하는건지헤어지자고해놓고연락하고지내는건진짜힘든거같아....그래서너한테냉정하게굴었어...나는니가진짜내여자친구였다는게나한텐너무과분했던거같아..딴남자안보고나만바라봐줬는데...내가멍청한거지머.....이제집에와도밖에별로나가고싶지가않다진짜..아원래도집에있는거좋아했었지만애들만나는건좋아했잖아근데요즘은귀찮다해야되나?ㅋㅋ나이를먹어가는징조인가바....그냥~~여기는다너랑다녀서그런가아까도니네집쪽으로가던버스타고집에오는데정말그때는서러웠다해야되나?....나도무슨감정이었는지는모르겠는데..정말.....아련하고정말좋은추억인데이제는되돌리지못하는거아니까더그랬던거같아.....근데나는후회가안된다?너랑헤어지고나서슬프고힘들고니가많이생각나고하는데.....후회가안되..난그게더너한테미안해.....그때헤어지자고말한게왜후회가안되는지내가너를안사랑한건지..내가정말나쁜새끼인지..나는정말너만큼다른여자사랑할지자신도없는데...그냥나는니생각나면웃음이나~애들이랑얘기하다가도옛날에걔는그랬는데하면서그냥웃음이난다?...나는정말내자신을모르겠다....진짜솔직히이거니가봤으면좋겠다..그래서이거보고니가단번에나라는거알수있었으면정말좋겠다!음....그냥쓰는거보면알지않을려나?아닌가...너는이런거올리는거싫어하잖아그래서..올려도되는건지어디다올려야니가볼수있는지....근데니가이거보고나한테연락안했으면좋겠다..그냥니가진짜로이거보고나한테연락하면나정말많이흔들릴꺼같아....정말알게되도나중에만나게되거나하면얼굴보고얘기해줘그거너지?하고!잘지내고아프지말고맨날아파서우리엄마도맨날너걱정했는데..운동도좀하고살도좀빼고이제겨울되는데잠바지퍼좀잠그고다니고손주머니에안넣는것도좋은데추우면넣고좀다녀손시렵다고하지말고...나많이사랑해줘서고맙고나보다더좋은남자만나서나한테복수해줘그게정말멋있을꺼같다...^^정말안녕1
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