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안녕....벌써부터힘없는건기분탓이겠지....
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내가슬픈걸여기다가써서혼자슬퍼하면되는대왜이런대에쓰냐면...아무한테도털어놓을사람이없어서그래나는이세상에서엄마가제일힘이되고진짜엄마없이는못산다이런마인드로살던딸이였어.....속도많이썩였지만그만큼보답하고싶었어....그래서잘못된모습고칠려고나라도똑바로살아야지라고항상다짐하면서잘못된거라고생각되면다른사람이잘못됬다고생각하면절대안물러서서나섰어그런대이런게문제가될줄이야.......그래서난중학교시절을잘보내지도못하고부모님속만썩였어나도힘들었어그래서그만해볼까라고도생각하고매일매일학교가기전에준비할때준비할힘도안나고눈물만나더라근대그래도굳게다짐하고잘못된거다짚고넘어갔던나였어물론보는사람들은내가완전답답해보였겠지...아니보이겠지그래서나도바꿀려고해근대그게바꾼다는게나를내려놓고하나하나포기하는게되더라고...그래서그렇케하려고했는대엄마가매일돈쓰는거에예민하단말이야근대와이파이가안터지면진짜너무답답하잖아그거알지?뭔지알지?진짜와이파이안터지면다....아는사람분명있을거라고생각해내가답답하다고생각하는사람들도있을꺼야근대엄마가이거돈내야되는대계속몇기가넘었는대계속쓸꺼녜그래서그럼써야되는대어떻케......이랬는대화내고그냥나가더라......그러고지금까지말도안해그리고방금아빠가우리나가서밥먹을까?이랬는대엄마가00이놔두고안갈거면가지말자고그러더라......나이제어떻케해야하고엄마랑은이렇케이런사이로영원히살아야하는지또어찌해야되는지조언좀해줘아니꼽게보지말아줘....제발내맘이지금너무힘들어서너무답답해서참을수가없어서쓰긴했는대너무오지랖이였나......?아무튼엄마가한번말안하면한2주는가....이게엄마성격이야나는그냥이렇케살면되는거야?.......