NONSENSE-_-;
am I..?
I want to go back.
The times when we could talk on the phone for hours
Even though we were tired. We would always talk in the night.
And then, I would wake you up in the morning^^
Now, no more waiting.
Even though I wait,
even though I call,
you are not there.
Whats the point of waiting?
Holding my phone with two hands
'praying' for a ring from you.
Nothing changes.
Standing in front of your house
waiting for you to come out of the house
just to see your face
to make myself full,
but I never make it.
Sometimes,
I dream of you to stand in front of my house
waiting for me,
to tell me that you love me
and nobody else is there but me.
Nonsense..
all the nonsense..
A long time ago,
the times we were having great times,
you would be right next to me,
listening to all my problems,
listening to all the troubles I had,
and I would get better with all your jokes,
your smile,
and the way you cared about me.
Now, I reach out my two hands as far as I can,
but you are not there.
No one there who can understand my feelings,
no one there who can talk to me about my problems, and troubles I have.
Even if there is someone,
they would not be even close to who you are.
I thought you were my brother.
why cant you talk to your sister?
do you hate your sister that bad?
I can't understand.
I mean I understand that you are busy,
but oh well,
sometimes I tell to myself that what I am doing to you
is a very selfish and annoying thing to do
and that I am making myself an idiot.
But you know what?
I can't lose somebody like this you know?
Not a person who is really special to me,
a person who could only understand me,
a person who told me that he loved me,
a person who told me that I was special,
a person who told me that I was the only one,
a person who was really close to me,
a person who would always think of me,
a person who could not do anything without me,
a person who would call me when he had troubles,
a person who would tell me everything of his life,
a person who taught me the way to live,
a person who made me special,
a person who would be there when I had troubles,
a person who would hug me when I had a bad day,
a person who would clear the tears on my face with his hands when I cried,
a person who would tell me that I could do anything because I'm his girl,
so many more things to say about he 'the one I obey to'.
I want to go back to the times
not the times we were going out
but the times when we were not going out.
you would come to my classroom
and you'd look for me when I had a class
and wave to me when you saw me
and give me strength to study.
you would hold my hands to make mine warm when your hands were as cold as mine.
you would protect me from cold wind in the winter eventhough you were shivering.
you would get cold instead of me.
you would hug me because you loved me
you would do anything for me..
... the happy days of you and me.
Have I changed?
If yes. I am sorry.
Can't it start again?
Have your feelings all vanished already?
Come back to me.
I'll be a nice girl.
only to you.
You can be nice
only to me.
I would lend you my shoulders.
only to you.
for you to rest on.
And you could also lend your shoulders
only to me.
Forever.
