An entry from My Diary...

August 19th 2006

"I am having mixed feelings. At the bus right now..heading to

Incheon airport..finally what I've been preparing for during my

highschool years is appearing to reality. In about fifteen to

twenty hours my bum will be in New York... NEW YORK!

YEAH BABY! Woooo Hoooo! If I had to write down and

describe all my emotions... it would be.... nervous, anxious,

stoked, afraid, excited, hyped, hopeful, lonely, extremely

happy --> too much emotions are splishin-and-splashin within me.

This trip to New York could be the last trip that my family may ever take together. Well at least it wont happen as often now.

I am going to embrace every moment of this trip. I'm really

going to miss my ma, pa, and bro. I have recieved so much

love from them throughout my childhood and teenage years.

They have been so loving and for that I am so greatful and

always feel that I have been blessed.

Now it is my task to take advantage of all the things that

resides within New York. Do Hoon! Have a great college life!

BE YOURSELF!. Be honest to yourself. Be honest to others.

This is a time for you to light up your color. Let's show'em

what my color is about hahaha this is kind of creepy talking to

myself. But it is pretty therapeautic hahaha.

Imagining that I'll soon be an adult (wait I already am!), no

longer a child. Knowing that soon I will have a lot ALOT of

responsibilities hahaha.. all of that seems so horrible... but

as an optimistic person dohoon is.. on the other hand I just

can't WAIT! I get to become independent! I am in full control

of myself now. No longer depending on parents (well except

for tuition fee for now haha) It's time for me to 정신 팍팍 차려!

I'm gonna miss so much people...my beijing friends...

relatives..my family... But let's see it this way. I am starting a new adventure. A new chapter in my life. Let's fully enjoy this

fresh adventure!  What can I do right now to better take care

of myself? Answer: smile :) Hmm that helped hahahaha 적극적인 인간이 되자! 두려움 없이 살자! LIFE is too damn short to

live it with fear! to fear is to not live at all! 부딫혀 보자고!"