i got up late today,

when the vacation stared i planed many things like a long jounery[planning a trip is as much fun as the trip itself, but it has been many years since i last traveled abroad.],

serve my parents with devotion[because i can't completely forget what i made a fool of myself last chuseok],

 study enlish hard,

health care[not only physical health but also mental health]

and so on..

but is this all i have done up to now?!!

i tend to focus a lot on one, 

like 3years ago and now.

what do i want? what do i respect? why do i injure my health for myself?

that's not good for me. isn't it?

anyway i hope my parents enjoy ther overseas journey and them a sfe trip.

recently, however if i miss my parents's voice i can call my brother instead.

i feel safe as long as my brother stay with me in my childhood. i obey him for myself and it seems to me that the link of brotherhood was really deep and close.

suddenly i want to eat sweets and a cup of hot coffee.