I thought I had moved on

but when the rain fell hard on my face,

I realized that I hadn't.

That you were still there,

just waiting for me to have the epiphany.

It awoke me so suddenly and shook me down-

The reason for my vibrant shivers;

neither the cold nor the rain.

Deja vu.

It felt just like the first time you left me here,

cold and shivering in the rain.

The moment I didn't feel the need to breath,

the moment I couldn't find the strength to breath.

The same epiphany I had back then,

occured to me then, and instinctively I held my breath.

That I needed you, that I missed you,

and that I loved you, no longer half-heartedly

but as whole, as my heart stopped dead

by the sound of your footsteps walking away from me.