although I said I'll forget about everything and move on,

nothing in the whole wide world has been harder than trying

to do so. I've promised to my self over and over again,

to keep my head down and concentrate on what I need to

and get on with my life, everywhere I go, everywhere I look

it comes back and doesn't leave until it scars me somewhere

I can't exactly put my finger on..

I must admit it's not the hardest time I've had, but it's definately

one of the most painful times I have gone through.

I just pray that I have the nerves not to give up and go haywire,

I have promised to my self that I will keep my head straight.

Don't sidetrack, and run the marathon I have thrown my self

into. It's what I chose, no one else told me what to do, it was

me who made the decision. as an old Korean proverb says:

男兒一言重千金. a man never takes back his word.