i'm here in US.. and my boyfriend is in korea...

i miss him.. i miss him so much...

i'm only 22 and he's 34.. 12 years of difference doesn't make any difference between us but how about our parents?

yes.. we've got plans but i can't help being overwhelmed with that thoughts about all the obstacles we'll have to face.

we have a perfect plan.. day after day we do our duties to the fullest so when one day both of our parents know, they at least won't blame us for caring so little about our duties- studying for me, and working for my boyfriend.

do what i can at the moment. live the present. that's all i can do right now, isn't it?

gosh... i miss him so much... how did i ever know that i'll fall in love so deeply with him?

.. i have this so called engagemet ring in my fourth finger. it's a tremendous help.. whenever i look at the ring i think of him.. everyday i long to see him again..to be in his arms, to see his smiles and eyes that carry affection so deep.

i love you i love you.. and i love you...

i was handling days pretty well without you.. i was trying, trying very hard to go to classes as usual and do very well in them.. but how can i focus when i'm not able to hear your voice for two days?

we've talked at least 3 times a day..no matter how much big of a phone bill you got..

is something wrong? are you sick? is your company going through a big trouble?

all i wanted is just a one-minute call saying that you're fine..

why wouldn't you let me know that you're going through something? why wouldn't you at least tell me you're fine..?

you know i had a terrible nightmare like i told you.

when i couldn't reach you by phone you know what i thought instaneously?

what if the nightmare was some kind of omen about what was gonna happen to you?

ja gi ya... at first i was upset.. but then i got frustrated and when i connected it to my dream i became so worried.

why is your phone off? for two days?...

i know you're not type of person who'll do this kind of thing.

i know you and your family..

...but i feel... very perplexed.

..and confused....

ja gi ya... you were always worried to lose me.. you always thought that i'm so young so when i get just a little older, you thought i'll abandon you and go for some other guy.. what's wrong..?

you would always say that the kind of love we are doing is not an ordinary love.

you love my soul, you said.

ja gi ya... yeo bo ya..(you always wanted me to call you by this..)

i'll wait.. i'll be patient and wait.

you said, " there's no separation, no stop-loving, no goodbyes between us."

"i want to grow old with you.."

"i don't need children (even if your the oldest among your brothers), all i need is you."

"i'll love you, you don't have to do anything. just stay where you are and feel the love i'm giving you.. ... you stay there, i'll come to you."

...these are the things you said to me.... and many more.

yeo bo ya... i'll wait... it's been only two days... i know.... i won't get frustrated anymore.. i'll wait.. i'll wait.......

at least i know you're safe...

i love you.. truly, sincerely..