[ Thank you for loving me ]

It's been a while since I wrote diary. I had worte it before I left for US at 3 am in the morning and I didn't even realise what I was writing. now as I read it I fould huge grammatical and expressional errors. I wish I could correct it but as that was what I felt and wrote on that night I rather leave it as it is.

I have come back to usual life after spending those dream-like moments. Before when we both had only pennies in our poket sometimes we couldn't help but choose the unplesent ways for dating. when I was young I didn't really mind  at all for all those situation.... but it seems  my boyfriend felt really sorry for not being able to treat me as he wished to.

Because...at that time,

He wasn't  able to treat me in the nice and fancy restaurant.

He wasn't able to provide me a Taxi for ride

He wasn't able to buy me nice clothes and shoes I wanted to have and give me a bunch of shopping bags...

He wasn't able to show me broad way Musical worth more than $100 per a person although we passed the street day and night in the middle of New York

but this time He even invited all his close friends to bar to introduce me to them and we drank and sang together in Korean town on his treat.

I was so proud to see him now in the position to be able to provide all those things he wished to do for me however at the same time I felt uncomfortable as I was not used to all those nice treatments at once. Whenever he swipe his credit card and give me hundreds dollars of cash for the shopping I felt so sorry for him and wasn't able to really enjoy it.

After all, within given 3 days, only for our date, he has done most of things he had wished to do for me. of course there were fights and disappointment as we had high expectation to each other and  found out differences we just imagined but never experienced before. We both simply didn't know how to adjust ourselves to each other. We were even shocked and disappointed...

Whenever people who have known us from the beginning of our relationship ask us us how come we still get along together, we jokingly answers as follows.

We might be able to wirte a book about our love story which includes our meeting, separation, what we had to sacrify, all those events we couldn't help but hurt each other due to the situation....

As the story is still going on nobody knows how it will turn out but who read the book from the last pages.....

I just cross my fingers across....