It just hurts and scares me too much

To imagine

Myself being in the world all alone

I do not know what made me like this

But

I always lived with the hope that it will not happen

I know that somewhere in my childhood

Has the part I have experienced

Something that I wanted to erase

And now that I don't remember

I guess it was a horrible memory to keep

And

This memory that I don't remember

Hurts me so much

That makes me weaker and weaker..