whenever I thought i'm ready to run, i realize that i'm at the zero point again.

whenever I lifted something a little above, I realize that it is laid on zero point again.

Whenever I accumulated things little by little and feel it'd be enough for me, then I realize there's nothing in my hands.

Whenever I made a great number of my ppl and satisfied, I realize that i've nobody near me.

Whenever I agreed that i know more than ever, I realize that i'm the most foolish than any other.

When I finished something, I realize that i'm facing new zero point.

Zero point.  Whatever i do, it never fade away from me.

Every way i choose, the end of the way shows me the same zone...'Zero point.'

after facing a large number of zero points, Now i realize the reason why i got stuck in zero point.

because it's all done by 'I'.  because 'I did', there was no change at all.

I'm nothing..  I can't do anything..   So at the moment I'm facing again the zero point, I just wanna give up myself. I surrender all who i am.

I won't do by my name. 

Can you hear me, my Lord? 

I will not do anything by and for me.

I lay down everything I have here,

take these and take my will..

please, please take a look here, here's a stray sheep wanna come to you.

lead me and use me.

I long to be absorbed in your love.

just put my life in your glorious name.

I know you listen to me now..

I can't even say the word by myself.

So just make me say I dare love you, Lord..

make me dare....

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Cant Live a Day  - Avalon

I could live life alone
And never fill the longings of my heart
The healing warmth of someone`s arms
And I could live without dreams
And never know the thrill of what could be
With every star so far and out of reach
I could live without many things
And I could carry on, but
I couldn`t face my life tomorrow
Without Your hope in my heart I know
I can`t live a day without You
Lord, there`s no night and there`s no morning
Without Your loving arms to hold me
You`re the heartbeat of all I do
I can`t live a day without You
Oh, I could travel the world
See all the wonders beautiful and new
They`d only make me think of You
And I could have all life offers
Riches that were far beyond compare
To grant my every wish without a care
Oh I could do anything, oh yes
But if You weren`t in it at all
I couldn`t face my life tomorrow
Without Your hope in my heart I know
I can`t live a day without You
Lord, there`s no night and there`s no morning
Without Your loving arms to hold me
You`re the heartbeat of all I do
I can`t live a day without You
Oh Jesus, I live because You live
You`re like the air I breathe
Oh, Jesus, oh, I have because You give
You`re everything to me
I couldn`t face my life tomorrow
Without Your hope in my heart I know
I can`t live a day without You
Lord, there`s no night and there`s no morning
Without Your loving arms to hold me
You`re the heartbeat of all I do
I can`t live a day without You

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